Always Cherish Those We Love...

I had such a great weekend and I couldn't wait to share it with you all! Unfortunately that great weekend is a bit of a memory now after today. Almost a year ago I posted about numerous sad things that were going on and in that post I mentioned my friend Dennie, at the time he had just been diagnosed with cancer but it was unknown what type and stage it was. Shortly after that post it was found that Dennie had a very aggressive cancer that started in his pancreas and had metastasized to his liver. It was a very odd cancer in origin as it wasn't an actual "pancreatic cancer" it had actually died off in the pancreas and had been spreading for many years the Dr's said. It was likely to have been there close to a decade before it moved into the liver and took on a life of it's own.

I should tell you here that this is not the same friend I told you about here, that is a different friend who is currently fighting his terrible battle with cancer...

Let me tell you about Dennie, he was 40 when he was diagnosed and was the husband of my lifelong best friend Shanna. I was the Matron of Honor in their wedding. He was a great Christian man who dedicated his life to God's calling, was he perfect? NO! He fought trials just like us all. Dennie was actually a very good friend of my other life long best friend Trisha and they had met through church. He had a daughter (whom he pretty much raised) and my friend had 2 daughters so they spent alot of time together with their girls. Dennie had a best friend named Mark and he helped get Mark and Trish together who have now been married for 7 years I think. After that they always felt so bad for Dennie because he was single and would make an awesome husband! That's where Shanna comes in, they introduced the two and they pretty much hit it off from the start. They were married within a year, Shanna had 3 kids from her previous marriage and Dennie had the 1 daughter. Then after being married for a year or so they got pregnant and had a son of their own.

Such a handsome man!

Dennie and Shanna shared a somewhat hard life together. Even though they were both awesome people who loved each other dearly they had problems they couldn't get past. After about 5 years of marriage they ended up separated which was around the time that Dennie was diagnosed. Their divorce was actually finalized after he was getting fairly sick...In any case Dennie had a great support system and first tried chemo but then after the Dr's decided that the cancer was not responding to the treatment they gave him an option, they told him that he could have surgery to remove half of his liver and with that scenario he had a 50% chance of dying on the table and there was no promises that it would work. He chose not to do the surgery and decided to try a natural healing clinic in Colorado. I am not sure what the clinic did for him, but I do know that they teach you about taking care of your body and trying to kick start your body to fight the cancer itself. Unfortunately this did not work, so Dennie was then left without any options.

Dennie with his little sidekick ;)

He fought this battle for almost a year, the cancer ravaged his body. He no longer looked like a man in his late 30's, he looked like a very sick man in his 60's. He spent months in so much pain from the cancer spreading and growing massively in his body. So big that he could point to the area that was forming under his skin. His quality of life was not something good it was terrible, the last few months of his life he couldn't even stay awake longer than a few hours a day and needed constant care to do even the simplest of things...I bring this up because there is so much confusion among some people where they think that only chemo treated patients will lose all ability to do anything and lose precious quality life time. It is simply not true...Not that ALL cancer patients will go through what Dennie did, but patients with cancers of that nature will.

Dennie sharing his last Father's Day with his kiddo's

I am so saddened to share that Dennie passed away early Sunday morning with friends and family all around him. They knew he was getting ready to leave them as his system started shutting down Saturday, however they did not expect it to be so quick. Dennie left behind 2 children, 1 daughter who is the same age as my DD of 11, and 1 son who is 3 1/2...He also left 3 children who still considered him their stepdad and my other friends 2 girls that considered him as an uncle. He will be missed deeply but he will never be forgotten.

A smile that will never be forgotten...

So my message today is simply this, treasure those you love and never take a single moment for granted. I think we are all guilty of it, I know I sure am!

Then to just top everything off this Sunday afternoon J's 9 month old Australian Shepherd was struck by a truck and killed...Struck by a truck that was driven by a friend of his! She was never a dog to go in the road so we don't understand what she was doing out there! J's friend had passed our house a few minutes earlier and was not driving fast like people usually do down our dirt road and when he came back down the road he said she just flew out from beside the mailbox that sits on the other side of our road, I was very thankful that this young man at least came to our door and told the Hubby what happened, he felt extremely bad about it...She was a sweet little girl and incredibly loving! She also liked to bark...ALOT...J is very upset over this, I wish I could just take the pain away! What a crappy way to end a previously great weekend...

Chevy at 3 weeks old...I'm sure I have more current pics but I just love this one of her!

Does It Ever Really End?

I wish I was writing to say that I have had a fabulous weekend but I'm not...This has been the strangest most emotionally challenging weekends for me maybe ever. Most of you know that my dad passed away 5 years ago this coming October. I posted a memorial post for him on the 4 year anniversary of his death and told you all about him.

My brother and I a couple of years ago...

But what I did not tell you was about his wife...My mom and dad were married when I was born, but divorced when I was 1 year old. I lived with my mom until I was a teenager then I left and went to my dad's. My whole life my dad stayed single, his whole life revolved around myself and my brother. After I had J he met a woman and married her when I was 17. After they were married and she moved in we had some issues, she did not like the fact that dad was so close to us kids and me especially. So one night she had been drinking and got mad at me cause J (who was 1 1/2 at the time) was watching TV at 10 pm, big deal I said! So she proceeded to bust my door in then came after me trying to attack me. My dad quickly ran and dragged her out into the hall where she tried to reach around him to hit me and he held her back. Ultimately she kicked J and I out that night and we went and stayed with a friend. The next day I came back and the house was destroyed, my dad informed me that she would never come at me again as she has been warned. He was right she never did try again and she seemed to try hard to like me. I left home shortly after that as it was not good for us to be in the same house, for me it was my house and for her I was an intrusion.

I should mention that the house we lived in was paid for by my dad before he ever married her. But after being married to her and putting her through nursing school he mortgaged the house to pay for her student loans. After she graduated school my dad lost his job of 27 years over a mistake of taking off work to go help one of her kids that needed him and he did not clock out when he left. There was a transition going on in the company and no room for mistakes so he was terminated immediately. After that he had a rough time as that was all he had ever done and was devastated to be in that position. Things just got worse and worse to the point where his wife "C" wouldn't even give him money for anything...He was only allowed a gas card to get gas. He came to TX to see me a few times when we lived there and would come with no money as she wouldn't allow it and he would usually leave without even saying where he was going. This is why he had to tell me what was going on because he had no money for food or anything else. He was so ashamed and I was so heartbroken for the greatest guy on earth!

My daddy

So fast forward to his passing away, maybe someday I can share with you what happened to him. Actually I kind of think now I will never know. But after he passed away, about a month and half later his wife moved in his "best friend"!! Into my dad's house! This man was a chronic drug user and my dad always had a soft spot for him as they grew up together (that's why he was even in his life). But his wife C "felt sorry for Marty" and decided that she needed company anyhow...WHAT?! Pretty much shortly after that I wasn't speaking to her anymore. To be honest I was very bitter about the way she treated my dad after everything he had done to support her and now she was living in a house my dad paid for and with his best friend!!!!! I asked her numerous times to please let me have my dad's personal belongings such as photo albums from my child hood but she wouldn't respond. I sent her letter after letter, even certified and they were returned. She soon after that filed bankruptcy, with a debt of around $140,000 which was astounding considering the house was only mortgaged for $40,000 and she didn't get any new vehicles or anything! So after she filed I couldn't file a civil suit against her and I just left it alone.

I knew that in that house there were illegal things going on. There was covering over the garage door windows and I knew he was a drug user so I suspected she might have fallen into it as well. I have a family member across the street who would periodically tell us there were strange things going on over there and he tends to keep a watch out. So Saturday afternoon he called my granny's and spoke to my cousin who then called me to tell me that C had been arrested...They were told she was abusing prescription meds and drinking. So after many calls to the jail we finally found out she was being charged with Domestic Violence Battery and Domestic Violence Assault. So I messaged her daughter and asked what the heck was going on and she informed me that the relationship C had with Marty was out of control and he "beats her all the time" and well she tries to kick him out but he came back with his kid who is very badly behaved and she tried to get him to leave and he refused then something happened and she proceeded to chase the son around the yard and hit him on the back of the head. WOW, this did not surprise me as I have been that kid...However her daughter claimed that she was not taking the meds and drinking and found it very hard to believe her mom attacked that kid or me. I responded that I have a letter from her mom apologizing for that and that she felt like her actions ruined my dad's love for her. All of which she wrote me after his death. So needless to say last night I was MAD! I wanted vengeance on this woman and all of the hell she has caused for me and my brother and especially my dad! I of course did not say that to her daughter I just simply told her that what I said was true and I was glad she never harmed them.

So today (Sunday) early afternoon I get a message that says "well you will never have to worry about C again as she committed suicide last night"?! WHAT?!!! I was shocked! And saddened and angry that now I'll never get the truth about things. My heart breaks for her kids and grand kids, I'm at such a loss for words. After speaking with her son whom I have not spoken to in almost 5 years I learned that she knew the cops were coming to arrest her and so she proceeded to take a whole bottle of aspirin, he other son told the police but she lied and said it wasn't true so they sent her to the jail, she later complained of stomach pains and by the time they got the jail nurse down there she was asleep so they left her alone only to find out she died in her sleep. Again WOW...

Her son called me (which by way she told her kids that my brother and I were harassing her and breaking into the house stealing things...Only today did he finally think that just maybe she lied) because he says he believes that my brother and I should have everything of my dad's that we have been asking for and he also believes the house should go back to us. I told him I have a hard time taking his word as I have been waiting 5 years just to have simple pictures that we now know had been thrown away. Her son confirmed to us tonight that C had in fact been on numerous different drugs including crystal meth, crack, cocaine, heroine and something else...I am not good with drug names..Her daughter also messaged me again today and said "she lied to me last night when she said her mom was clean because she was trying to defend her but she had in fact found out last night that she was on meth". So I guess I am going to be hiring an attorney over the house thing. I'm thinking if she has this huge debt I won't be able to take the house but I'm not sure at this point where all of that stands. I am under the impression she had not been working either. I was informed tonight that the house is FULL of drug paraphernalia; needles, broken needles, syringes, spoons, coffee cans full of needles and such etc etc etc...Her son said he actually had to leave the house as it was about to make him throw up it is so bad. I am really upset by this, my dad took such care of his house and now I hear the whole thing is trashed!

Please pray for me...

Looking into the Lives of Other's

So I have thought a lot about writing this post and have finally decided that the truth is the truth and it should be heard, right?! I have always been the type of person that is very "in-touch" with the facts of life and I spend a lot of time looking at adversity's that others are facing as a baseline for how I live my life. Why am I writing about this, and why is this hard for me?...Well let me tell you what I have been watching...

4 months ago one of my life long Best Friend's husband was diagnosed with Stage IV pancreatic cancer that has also invaded his liver and spleen. At that time he was basically told that he had little chance of survival. He chose to go to a University hospital and do treatments that could or could not help him. After enduring this for a short while he was rescanned and found that the tumors had not responded to the treatments at all. So he was given only one other option by the doctors - and that is surgery. The invasive surgery would involve the removal of his pancreas, spleen, and almost half of his liver. The survival rate for this extensive surgical procedure alone is barely 50%, providing that the surgery is a success, he would eventually need a liver transplant somewhere in the near future with chances of survival no better than the 50%. After hearing this news he did not feel like God was directing him towards that, rather he was directing him in a whole different way. The surgeon that he was seeing told him about a place called Eden Valley Institute in Colorado. This place is a facility that will concentrate on a proven nutritional plan along with supplementation and proven non-invasive therapies. They have researched this place extensively and have found that the survival rate is very high and so this is the route he is choosing to take. So now is the place where I should mention that my friend has been separated from this man for going on 2 years now. It has been very difficult for them both as they have a diabetic son together who requires a lot of special care...

Then another family we are friends with the dad was just diagnosed with Large B-Cell Lymphoma. I asked for prayers in this post here. The diagnosis that he got was not the worst news in the world but yet it is devastating to him I'm sure. Basically he will receive treatments for 18 weeks with an 80% survival rate and a chance of recurrence being the strongest in the first 2-3 years after treatment with a then survival rate of 50%...His family remains in good spirits and I believe God will pull them through all of this.

The last story I want to share with you is difficult to say the least...A family with a 13 year old boy that runs in the same rodeo association as DD had a tragic accident a week ago Saturday. The 13 year old boy took a friend to show him a hunting rifle that he had gotten and there was an accident with another gun that I believe they thought was unloaded and the 13 year old young boy was tragically killed. The moment that I found out it was him, I thought to myself I wished I hadn't ever heard "who" it was...We did not know this family really well but we have watched him rope many a times and I see his face in my head every day, and I think about how devastating this is for his family...

So now why am I telling you all of this sadness? Because I want share with you how I see life. I get SO upset with people who take their lives for granted or their children's lives for granted...Not to say that I myself don't need to be reminded at times because I do. I see my family as the greatest gift on earth!! I cannot imagine my life without them, and I honestly don't get people who cannot put their kids or families first!

For me, I admire anyone who has half the strength as these people and I hope and pray for them everyday...

So do we chose to give into the storms....



Or see the light shining through the clouds?!

Prayer Warriors I Need You!!!

Okay Friends and Family, I once again come to you with a prayer request for a dear family friend...I will do my very best to explain the need without identifying the family as they are seeking for privacy right now...

This family is great!! They have wonderful children and mom and dad are wonderful people as well. At a recent routine checkup appt for dad he requested a CT scan to have a clear mind from a previous illness, basically he wanted to be sure it was all gone and he would continue to be OK...Well in that scan that got some discouraging news that there is a mass in his chest so after a couple attempts they were finally able to get a specimen to send off for pathology... They have been waiting and waiting for these results, of course mom is having more anxiety waiting as we women tend to worry and dad is seemingly doing well..Today they received a preliminary report and they believe it to be Large Cell Lymphoma...They do not know what type as of yet but the specimen has been sent to Mayo for full testing and hopefully they will get news next week. So please everyone I beg of you to pray for this family, my friends... I know I am not giving you very much to go off of but God knows and lets surround this family with so many prayers that they will feel the love!!!

Thank you all!!

This Story Breaks my Heart!!

A few months ago I shared a story of a family that we rodeo with. At the time that I wrote that post Brett the husband/dad had been in a very bad lawn mower accident, to read that post go here. Brett has been recovering and undergoing multiple different surgeries and physical therapy's, he has really been working hard to get as back to normal as he can. His road has been long and tough and it will continue to be that way for a while. So whilst they have been trying to move on with their lives they have had another HUGE life changing event...

On September 10, 2009 Karody who is the wife/mother of the Robbins family was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma of the right breast grade 2. She has had some positive things to her type of cancer such as she tested ER/PR Positive and the HER2/neu was good (not over expressive which would be a bad thing). The ER/PR positives are good because that means she will be able to receive hormonal therapy. So her current plan of action is 5 months of chemo followed by bilateral mastectomy with immediate reconstruction and possible radiation. Karody is hoping and praying for no radiation. She is a vibrant young woman who has 2 small children. She is a barrel racer and loves riding!! She is also hoping and praying that she will be able to attend the rodeo circuit that our kids do together as it is a very big part of their lives..

So friends I ask today that you would please add this family to your prayer list. If you happen to have a prayer ring or prayer group at church please, please add the Robbins family! I can not imagine how stressed and exhausted they must be feeling.. When I talked with Karody about everything she expressed that she is focusing on getting better and being there for her family and I asked her if there was anything I could possibly do for them and she said just prayers please.

Not so Wordless Wednesday

Tuesday was a tough day for me...Not me personally but I have so many family and friends in need of miracles and prayer power...My day started off with a very sad story about one of my cousin's friends who is the same age as my J. The young man whom his friends called "Whisper" because he had an Esophagus problem and spoke only in a whisper. The coaches announced to the football team Monday night that they needed to prepare to go to the funeral of their teammate...I guess unbeknownst to the team and friends Whisper had found out in June that he had Lung Cancer...And he was in the hospital's PEDS ICU, so many went to visit him and it was very hard. Tuesday evening 11 minutes before my cousin and friends made it to the hospital Whisper passed away. This is just tearing my heart apart, this boy was my son's age! The only thing I wanted to do all day was find my son and hug him!! And when I did it felt great!! He of course was wondering what the heck was going on!! He of course understood after I told him...

I also have a friend who is waiting in limbo to find out if he is dying from cancer...He is a very good man and he has children that he takes great care of, and I pray that his cancer is not the terminal one.. It will be 1 of 3 types and the worst being a full diagnosis of a terminal cancer with short time to live..

Then I find out tonight that my SIL's granny has had a stroke Tuesday. I do not have the details but it doesn't sound really good from what small bits I have figured out..

So many prayers needed...So please join me and put these families in your prayers...

This picture was taken Monday evening when my Cousin was at the hospital with his friend Whisper...Amazing the rays of light...And no I didn't know anything at that point

Thanking God for Good Doctor's!!

So last night I sent out a Prayer Request for my Hubby, and I must say we are so blessed to be in touch with so many wonderful people!! Thank you all for the prayers, and what we found out today was much different then what the local Dr was saying...

This morning Hubby had to make his repeat visit with the local hospital and have his blood redrawn, so that we did. Well a girl came in with the results and said they were at 6,700 which is great compared to yesterday and right inline with where they want them. Now the funny thing was she just said that and then said "OK drink lots of water and you should be good"?!?! WHAT?!?! That's it!! I mean NOBODY came in to see him at all, nope no Doctor!! So I took Hubby home, stopped and got him a sandwich on the way home but by the time we got home he was exhausted and getting a fever again so he just went back to sleep...So I started facebooking with some friends and family about what was going on and we were all in agreement that this needed to be looked into further! So I went in and woke the Hubby and said "I'm taking you to the hospital" he argued with me a bit...I think he did want to go but he did not want someone to think he was just being over reactive or something...So he reluctantly said yes he would go. So my mom met us at the hospital and took the kids while we were in there.

Finally in a room he was evaluated by a resident DR and she was asking questions of what had been going on, how long, etc...Then he showed her the area that the pain in his leg was (he had originally said groin area but when he thought about it he figured out it was just the top inside of his leg) so then she asked if he had any rashes anywhere and we were like no nothing...So she gave him a "gown" to put on so they could examine his leg area. So when I went to take off his socks I seen like the brightest red on his leg and I was like "what the heck"?!?! So we got his jeans off and upon looking at his right leg we found the lower half below the knee was a huge rash?!?! I was shocked!! I put his socks on before we left the house and I didn't notice it but I guess it wasn't real bright in my bedroom...So the Doc's come back in and we show them and they both go "OH WOW, Umm OK"...They looked at the rash really good and they both said it looks as though you (Hubby of course LOL) have an infection in your leg!! So they ordered complete blood work up with markers to tell them if this was any Lymphoma or Hodgkins or something...They also took a urine sample then when they were doing the physical examination of that area they found that he had enlarged lymph nodes and that's where the pain was coming from. So he was taken for an Ultrasound of the area and it was found that he has several inflamed lymph nodes in that region. So they were definite in saying that it is an infection in his leg and the lymph nodes were swelled and hurting from trying to keep the infection from spreading.

So they ordered additional testing on his blood. Testing for Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever and Lyme Disease, but we won't have the results for that until maybe tomorrow or Monday...So he is currently home and on antibiotics and if we see any more rash, increased fever, or increased pain then he is to go back to the hospital ASAP. Otherwise we shall follow up with his regular Dr on Monday..Which doesn't sound like such a great idea since they didn't put much thought into his issues in the first place...

He took his antibiotics tonight and I think he was already feeling a bit better when he went to bed..So I'll keep praying!!!

His leg while still at the hospital



Right before he went to bed..

Prayer Request for my Hubby

Do you ever just have times where you feel helpless?? Well this last 24 hrs has been that time for me...My Hubby is an awesome man and super strong and definitely always very healthy. Usually if he gets sick it has to be a big deal to keep him down, well this is one of those times where there is something big wrong because he is down and staying down :(

Last night when I went to bed I thought he was sound asleep so imagine my surprise when he started talking to me! I kind of wondered at first if he was talking in his sleep, he does do that LOL!! But he kind of mumbled something and I said "what are you doing awake" (remember I'm a night owl, so he should have been long asleep LOL) he says "I don't know, but is it cold in here"? I said no it wasn't cold and he responded that he was very cold. Mind you the man sleeps with a heavy comforter on him so I went and got his double fleece blanket and covered him up then took his temperature and he had a fever. So I got him some Motrin and then layed down and asked him what was going on with him because at that point I realized he was shaking horribly. He said he was having bad pain in the top of his leg and his chest. He also was having pain in his back but he thinks that's a pulled muscle from a couple of days ago. I asked him to describe the pain and he couldn't, he was just hurting everywhere and was cold and shaking and had chills. So I just figured he must be getting a flu bug or something but the pain in his leg and chest threw me off...I wanted to get up and google for information but my internet was down yesterday, again...So when he got up this morning (which he didn't ever really sleep) he decided he wasn't going to work. So finally my internet was up so I started googling his symptoms and I ended up calling the Dr's office, so they of course said to bring him down they didn't think it was a flu bug.

So we went to the Dr and he told him everything that had gone on (with some help from me of course). The Dr decided that he thought Hubby had passed a Kidney Stone into his bladder, but to be extra cautious they had him do a full blood work up. When they got that back the Dr was a bit shocked to find that Hubby's WBC was at 15,000 and by their scale they like them to be 5,000 - 8,000 so then he ordered a urine sample and they found that his urine was 99% bile. So then he tells us that means his Kidney's are backed up and that the stone is probably blocking something and preventing them to work right. So he was told they wouldn't make him check into the hospital if he promised to take it easy and drink at least 12 oz of water an hour so he said he would..I am to take him back in the morning and they will redraw his CBC to check the WBC count, if it is better then that's good if it's not better then they will probably be sending us on to the hospital in the city...

He has had a rough night so far. He has kind of cycled through all of the symptoms a few times and will feel OK for a little while and then crashes again...He's asleep now, he was starting another fever as he layed down..He was chilled feeling and cold again..So hopefully tomorrow will be a brighter day...

Family in need of Prayer...

I would like to take a minute to share with everyone about this family. The Robbins family rodeo'd in Kingman during the winter circuit DD did and they are just a fantastic family! I was notified yesterday afternoon that Brett the father was hurt horribly on June 17 while mowing his lawn. While he was mowing the lawn his lawn mower exploded and he was set on fire...He was able to stop, drop, and roll but was at home with only his 2 small children. After he got the fire out he managed to get his cell phone out of his pocket and call 911, he then hung up on 911 and called his wife Karody who then called their neighbor who was luckily home and is a trained nurse, so she aided to him until the paramedics got there and he was flown by helicopter to St Francis.. Brett was burned 40% of his body and also inhaled the flame so he had internal burns as well...He spent a long hard 4 weeks in St Francis Hospital and is now in a Rehabilitation Hospital at Wesley...

Please feel free to go to the the website of Caring Bridge where Karody has been keeping a daily journal of Brett's story.

Link to Caring Bridge where Karody is keeping a daily journal...

So please, please keep this family in your prayers...

There will also be a benefit Barrel and Team Roping rodeo in Canton, KS for all of our rodeo friends, if you could attend that would be great!! I will post a flyer for that..

OK so I can't get the actual flyer posted so I will just give the info!! So any of my KS friends that want to come should!!!

4D Barrel Race - ABRA Sanctioned



August 22, 2009

Tom Miller Arena Canton, KS



2:00 p.m. Exhibitions

3:00 p.m. Jackpot



Open $35 Entry Fees

14 & Under Youth Jackpot - $15



2/3 payout



1/3 to Robbins Family



Trophy Breast Collar





Team Roping

Start: 30 minutes after Barrel Race



2/3 payout

1/3 to Robbins Family



#15, #12, and #10 ; 4 for 30





All ropings together w/separate short go’s



Trophy Breast Collars

Winning #6 and above; #5 and below



Team Roping will not start before 5 p.m.



Silent Auction open all day with winning bids announced before the start of Team Roping Short Go.





Barrel Information: Kim Hamilton 316-747-2554 or email khamilton@usd396.net



Team Roping Information: Jason Trent 316-772-2622

A couple of updates today...

This week and has brought a lot of heartache and pain for people I love and cherish...I want to update you on the the 2 people I have asked you all to pray for..

We'll start with little Hailey, she was attacked by a pit bull last Saturday. Well she was released from the hospital Tuesday evening as she was doing well with what she was dealing with. They ultimately decided to do the removal of stitches today (Friday), so she went in for the procedure, that's what it ended up being was another sedation to remove the stitches. So they did that, the main thing that did not go right was the stitches on her nose did not hold...I do not know what this means for little Hailey. Someone asked how many stitches she had and they did not have an exact count but they could tell her family that she had a total of 72" of skin that had needed stitching... WOW, I can't even imagine. What a sweet little angel..

Look at this beautiful little angel!!! Her eyes say it all...




Yesterday I came to you regards to my SIL and her unborn baby girl. From the minute she got the news last night we have been spreading the word like wild fire, I told her today she can't imagine the multitudes of people we have praying for her!! So today brought a calmer day for her, I am sure these prayers have a hand in that :) Her bleeding has almost stopped, her H&H was up to 9.3!! She was very tired and exhausted as she couldn't sleep last night, they gave her a sleeping pill at 3:00 am but then came in every hour and woke her LOL!! Of course I am sure they were doing the necessary checks on her so she understood that. The bed they had her in was very uncomfortable so they moved her to another floor and she said the bed is SOOO much better!! So she was hoping to get some rest tonight..They did not do another sonogram today, which is a little disappointing...Apparently it is quite chaotic up there as far as the DRs are concerned, it's almost as if there is to many Drs involved so no-one really knows who's in charge. So they all just kept waiting to see who would order it?!?! She I think was content though, she is keeping faith and knows the prayers are helping. So I am hoping maybe tomorrow (Saturday) they will do another and have more good news for her and her Cowboy! She did want me to thank everyone for their prayers and thoughts, she can read everything she just can't reply from her phone..

Jen and I...I wanted you to see this vivacious loving woman and the beauty that she brings!!!



So to you my friends tonight I thank you...I thank you for being there like an army when I have asked for prayers for these very special people..You all are wonderful and we just can't even express how much we appreciate you all!!

In need of some more Prayer Power my Friends..

I come to you again tonight and ask for more prayers...My SIL recently found out she is pregnant, about 20 weeks along. She did not know due to the fact that for one she was on birth control, and second she was having women episodes...Or so she thought...Well she was at the Dr's a few weeks ago so that they could do a sonogram to find out how big the cysts were on her ovaries because they thought that was the reason she was having these severe women issue's....Well during that sonogram much to their surprise they were told she was pregnant, almost at 20 weeks and it's a girl...WOW, what do you say to that...I'm not sure what she said other than a WHAT!! They have 3 other children so to them this was not bad it was another blessing added to their family! Well as the last couple of weeks have progressed she has had problems with the bleeding on and off. Basically if she literally stayed on the couch and didn't move she wouldn't bleed but if she moved around she'd bleed. She went in last Friday for another sonogram so that they could check everything again and everything was seeminlgy fine. She was put on bed rest over the weekend because when she had the sono the tech had said her amniotic fluid was low and her DR was out of town so the on call DR just wanted to be on the safe side. Well come Monday when she spoke to the DR he basically told her again everything looks normal other than the bleeding so she just needed to stay on light duty and rest as much as possible and he said her amniotic fluid was not low it was the same as the first sono...

So throughout the week she has continued to have problems and they of course where scaring her I'm sure. Well she passed a blood clot and was put back on bed rest and again same thing, after she lays it slows but if she moves it gets worse?? So strange I tell you, well this morning brought another blood clot and this time the DR finally decided she needed to go to the city and get a sono at the hospital and then see him again. Well she did that and after the sono they took some blood to. Which I might throw in here that she is anemic when she's not pregnant so when she is pregnant it can get worse. The resident specialist finally came in and told her that upon investigation of the sono she has another blood clot in her uterus and they couldn't rule out whether or not her water had broke so they started treating her as if it had. When they got the blood back her H&H was at an 8 so they immediately ordered a blood transfusion for her and started that as well.

She waited till this evening before she finally got to see this "specialist" who came in and literally has NO bed side manner what so ever!!! If I would have been there I might have slapped her across her face!! She told my SIL that her water had broke and that they needed to induce her labor and her baby would die...She is 21 weeks and 6 days, well by the time you read this she will be 22 weeks along...She was told that the risk to her was high if she did not deliver and she basically told that DR that she was not willing to give up just like that!!! Well her Cowboy was extremely upset so he went for a walk and ran into her OBGYN and he told Cowboy that he was on his way up to see her. So her DR said this is how it is; She can stay how she is under the following conditions: 1- her H&H levels must stay up and her bleeding must stop or at least slow down and 2- she could not spike a fever. If either of those things happen she would be forced to deliver the baby...So she of course said this is what we will do. The next thing he told her gave me great hope, he said that they do not know the size of the hole in her sac so if it's small with the antibiotics they have her on and her blood levels coming up it is possible that tear could heal and she could produce more amniotic fluid. The goal is to at least get her to 24 weeks, a Neonatal specialist came in also and said that 24 weeks they would probably be OK but now she has to get there..

I myself have lost 2 pregnancies and I do not want her to go through that heartache and pain. She is a wonderful sister, friend, wife, mother and she deserves the best...So I ask you all to please pray for her and her baby girl...