Thursday, October 29, 2009

So Much Sadness... It's Just To Much!!

I really like to keep things real in my life and sometimes that's not really a good thing... I prefer to deal with emotions and get emotional about sad or upsetting issues rather than sweeping them under the rug and acting as if they don't exist.. Do you wonder what the heck I am babbling about today, I'm telling you this is where my mind has been!!

Last week J attended the FFA National Convention, I was really nervous about letting him go because he has never been away from home like that. And quite frankly I just worry about EVERYTHING!! Can you say control freak?!?! I can!! So anyhoo~ away he went to Indianapolis for his 5 day trip. They really were having a great time, and I get a text message asking "what happened to the FFA Students"? I start to freak so I immediately run to the computer and log into Facebook (I know, please don't judge) because it seems to be the fastest way to find anything out!! I am texting J also and asking him what happened and he tells me a kid from TX fell like 42 feet and landed on the concrete in the mall and he was in critical condition... OH how my heart ached for his family!! So they continue on with their week and come Friday evening they get a call from some friends that are at the convention as well and they live in the county next to us, but they call all freaking out because one of their members had just "passed out" and was rushed to the hospital.. So they go to their hotel and spend some time with their friends and everyone was just freaked out!! While all of that was going on the Hubby and I were at J's football game even though he wasn't there because it was our night to provide food for the players after the game. This game was a bad one, we were down players, we had players that were playing injured and then they leave for halftime and all of the sudden there is panic going on in our side of the bleachers. One of our players was being life watched to a hospital in the city he had apparently gotten a concussion (which this is like his 3rd one this year, he's been hauled out on a stretcher once before)and they didn't realize it until half time and he was in bad shape. Thank GOD he was OK, but he will never play football again, he would then have a high chance of becoming permanently handicapped if he got another concussion.. OH dear God it was so scary!!

So back to Lauren, I do not have ALL of the facts of what happened but basically she "passed out" and she was in her room and no one could get in because they did not have a key. After much fight and frustration they got someone to open the door for them and they immediately started CPR on her. Lauren had a medical condition in her heart, this is a condition that at least 1 sister that I know of has and that sister has an internal defibrillator and she is fine. But Lauren was diagnosed about 8 months ago and at that time the DR's said she was not in need of one. So when she "passed out" her heart actually stopped, so by the time they got her to the ER it had been 30 minutes and quite a long period of no oxygen to her brain. Her family was taken to her by a chartered plane and they were given hope before they got there and then all of the sudden things were not good. Laurens body started shutting down and she was on life support, on Sunday morning they did a brain scan and there was no brain activity and she died a little while after... Through all of this they tested her for H1N1 and she tested positive, no one knew she had it and your body can carry it for 6 days before you show any symptoms, so with her heart condition the actual cause of death is H1N1 because it caused the organs to malfunction due to her pre-existing conditions.. OH I can't express to you the sorrow that this community is feeling.

Then the following day we lost another "member" of our community to a fatal car crash. I just cannot believe it, I don't understand where all of this is coming from!

I'm sure some of my readers are also readers of Amy's blog "Our Daily Blessing...Life". Amy is an amazing woman who has been through so much I cannot even fathom how she does it. Amy herself is currently fighting a battle for her life against cancer, she also has a son named Philip who is fighting for his life he has multiple medical conditions and the DR's cannot seem to do anything to fix things for him. Then a few months ago Amy was so excited for a new light her life, her nephew Jackson. Amy just adored him and he gave her such hope and more desire to fight these battles in her life. She loved him with all of her heart.. And then suddenly October the 6th (I think was the date) Jackson died suddenly... How do you make any sense out of these tragedy's, I mean so many hearts broken and lives lost... WOW I just cannot find it in my heart to not hurt for all of these people...

So in Honor of those lives lost and their families and also in Honor of my sister-in-law and my baby niece Jentri who was taken from her mommy's womb in June to be with God in Heaven I want to dedicate this song...

You can follow the link to see the beautiful video by Natalie Grant, or it is the 1st song on my playlist..

Held by Natalie Grant


18 comments:

  1. I will say a prayer for your community. That's a lot of sadness in such a short time.

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  2. Wow, that's a lot to take in a short amount of time. I'll keep y'all in my thoughts and prayers.

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  3. Crying by the time I got through reading. Yes, this sadness is so hard to comprehend. These things hit all families, and we need to keep our faith in God to get through one day at a time.

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  4. That is a lot for a community to have to go through all at once.
    Prayers for everyone around you and may GOD strengthen you and help you get through this one day at a time.
    Prayers and Hugs

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  5. Prayers to you and all of those who have experienced these tragedies.

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  6. Crying with you. This is such sad news. My prayers and thoughts are with you. HUGS

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  7. So sad....such awful burdens for you to carry on your shoulders, too. Pray for peace my friend. Prayers also being said for everyone who has had a loved one injured or die.

    Gentle hugs for you,
    ~Lisa

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  8. Your story gave me cold chills. I hope it gets better soon for your community. Life seems to be very scary right now and I just don't understand why.

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  9. My goodness, this just breaks my heart. It is so hard when you live in a tight community, and everyone knows everybody. We'll be praying for those that are hurting tonight, I just can't even imagine...
    Makes you want to hug your babies tight...

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  10. Such sadness....I know they always say things happen for a reason but nobody (even God) can tell us why -- or how long it will take before we realize the reason! Stay strong --- (sending a hug!)

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  11. Oh and thank you for the photo information -- one of these days I'm going to take the time and dig into all that info and see what I get!

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  12. oh my gosh.. I am so sorry to hear of these awful events.We just don't know the answers to your question.. why..

    We also just lost a special member of our church community last week, he was a previous collage football player who loved God, and was a music ministry leader, he died of a massive heart attack in his sleep last Sunday.. 49 years old. He was loved by so many..and touched 1000's with his ministry...

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  13. I am so sorry! This has to be so tough on everyone!! I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers!!

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  14. Yanno I was B#$% about my crappy week.. but it's nothing compared to all that your community has lost. It really puts my life into perspective.
    *hugs*

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  15. Oh My friend. My heart and prayers go out to your community It is so hard to see young people hurting, let alone passing on. To have that many tragedies is so heartbreaking. ((Warm Hugs)) May God bless and keep your neighbor families safe and healthy.

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  16. Thank you all for the blessings and prayers... If we could continue to pray for the Merklein family who buried their angel today..

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