So Much Sadness... It's Just To Much!!

I really like to keep things real in my life and sometimes that's not really a good thing... I prefer to deal with emotions and get emotional about sad or upsetting issues rather than sweeping them under the rug and acting as if they don't exist.. Do you wonder what the heck I am babbling about today, I'm telling you this is where my mind has been!!

Last week J attended the FFA National Convention, I was really nervous about letting him go because he has never been away from home like that. And quite frankly I just worry about EVERYTHING!! Can you say control freak?!?! I can!! So anyhoo~ away he went to Indianapolis for his 5 day trip. They really were having a great time, and I get a text message asking "what happened to the FFA Students"? I start to freak so I immediately run to the computer and log into Facebook (I know, please don't judge) because it seems to be the fastest way to find anything out!! I am texting J also and asking him what happened and he tells me a kid from TX fell like 42 feet and landed on the concrete in the mall and he was in critical condition... OH how my heart ached for his family!! So they continue on with their week and come Friday evening they get a call from some friends that are at the convention as well and they live in the county next to us, but they call all freaking out because one of their members had just "passed out" and was rushed to the hospital.. So they go to their hotel and spend some time with their friends and everyone was just freaked out!! While all of that was going on the Hubby and I were at J's football game even though he wasn't there because it was our night to provide food for the players after the game. This game was a bad one, we were down players, we had players that were playing injured and then they leave for halftime and all of the sudden there is panic going on in our side of the bleachers. One of our players was being life watched to a hospital in the city he had apparently gotten a concussion (which this is like his 3rd one this year, he's been hauled out on a stretcher once before)and they didn't realize it until half time and he was in bad shape. Thank GOD he was OK, but he will never play football again, he would then have a high chance of becoming permanently handicapped if he got another concussion.. OH dear God it was so scary!!

So back to Lauren, I do not have ALL of the facts of what happened but basically she "passed out" and she was in her room and no one could get in because they did not have a key. After much fight and frustration they got someone to open the door for them and they immediately started CPR on her. Lauren had a medical condition in her heart, this is a condition that at least 1 sister that I know of has and that sister has an internal defibrillator and she is fine. But Lauren was diagnosed about 8 months ago and at that time the DR's said she was not in need of one. So when she "passed out" her heart actually stopped, so by the time they got her to the ER it had been 30 minutes and quite a long period of no oxygen to her brain. Her family was taken to her by a chartered plane and they were given hope before they got there and then all of the sudden things were not good. Laurens body started shutting down and she was on life support, on Sunday morning they did a brain scan and there was no brain activity and she died a little while after... Through all of this they tested her for H1N1 and she tested positive, no one knew she had it and your body can carry it for 6 days before you show any symptoms, so with her heart condition the actual cause of death is H1N1 because it caused the organs to malfunction due to her pre-existing conditions.. OH I can't express to you the sorrow that this community is feeling.

Then the following day we lost another "member" of our community to a fatal car crash. I just cannot believe it, I don't understand where all of this is coming from!

I'm sure some of my readers are also readers of Amy's blog "Our Daily Blessing...Life". Amy is an amazing woman who has been through so much I cannot even fathom how she does it. Amy herself is currently fighting a battle for her life against cancer, she also has a son named Philip who is fighting for his life he has multiple medical conditions and the DR's cannot seem to do anything to fix things for him. Then a few months ago Amy was so excited for a new light her life, her nephew Jackson. Amy just adored him and he gave her such hope and more desire to fight these battles in her life. She loved him with all of her heart.. And then suddenly October the 6th (I think was the date) Jackson died suddenly... How do you make any sense out of these tragedy's, I mean so many hearts broken and lives lost... WOW I just cannot find it in my heart to not hurt for all of these people...

So in Honor of those lives lost and their families and also in Honor of my sister-in-law and my baby niece Jentri who was taken from her mommy's womb in June to be with God in Heaven I want to dedicate this song...

You can follow the link to see the beautiful video by Natalie Grant, or it is the 1st song on my playlist..

Held by Natalie Grant